COVID19 a backhand from the Mother?

Seriously, I do and don't want to hear it anymore. The outpour of devastation is too big. The loneliness people are enduring....the fears, the unknown. Seniors suffer and fear for their lives, kids are terrified - I mean, I don't even know how to wrap my brain around the magnitude of this monster - how …

The search and ache of one without sisterhood…

For some days, weeks, months, there has been a weird energy around me. Somehow there is this neverending experience of feeling bullshit. I lose respect and don't want to be around them anymore. Women. Wondering if it results from my own bs-ness as a teenager...? From maiden to mother, trying to find my own way …

It’s a backward race – but why?

***Or "My confidential Self", as my daughter titled it*** I am about to experience my 40th spring. The first 'New Decade Spring'. A spring as powerful as one can only imagine. It is the time for the New. Mother Nature is waking up from her deep winter sleep. We will witness new growth, new beginnings, …

What is ‘solid people’?

I woke up to the following quote this morning: " Your peace is more important than driving yourself crazy trying to understand why something happened the way it did. Let it go." I have no idea whos quote this is but I needed it. I have been trying to get a hold of a person …

I never was a fan of the Basketball Star…

Hmm. Honest words. Too harsh? No. I never was a fan of a Sports Star, a super athlete in this country. Simply, I didn't grow up here nor with the sports. In Germany, there are some athletes I like but its not like I am sill informed, after 14 years of abstinence, who is popular …

Dear feral She, please come out and play with Her.

The First New Moon. New Year. New Decade.Reevaluating. Intentions. New something. Ending. Beginning. Close. Open. Change. Live. Die. Live. Turn.Since this is going to be a wild ride; Dear Wild- we need assistance! With, according to the moon and it's fixed star, NEW as in every aspect: Positive, Negative, Emotional, Unexpecting, Unpredicting to Re/Building, Re/Inventing…many, …

Social Media – why is it so?

Why is it that social media is this constant back and forth? I recall 2007 when I created my first social media account on Myspace. Then followed Facebook in 2009 and sure enough, Instagram. By that time of course Myspace wasn't in the picture anymore. Over the past ten years I was on social media …

Yin Yang, people sprinkles, and some.

Yin Yang, people sprinkles, and some… It's been weeks since I was able to write anything. Not just here, but with our shop blog, posting updates on the land has been a struggle. I know why, I think. Life has been this beautiful mix of "Wholly sh!t, yay," and "damn sh!t storm". These extreme mixes …

Am I putting US out there too much? What does family even mean?

I have been trying to write this for over a week now. After seven drafts and some nights of minimum sleep I like to think I have figured it out. Family, as it states in the dictionary is: a basic social unit consisting of parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together …

STOP! The newly born calf on the Fastlane

'Life in the Fastlane'….,humming The Eagles, as I am observing the mind- boggle in my head. It goes a little something like this: There is a yoga instructor online I have been following for several years. I love her practice. Her beginner classes are amazing. The way she explains different postures and what to pay …